DANISA

2009-07-31T22:19:00.006-04:00

Post Surgery Cheer

I went through a major surgery about 5 weeks ago. I thought I was prepared to face it until I woke up from the anesthesia. I realized I had to be resting for real. I depended on others to get my water, my sandals, help me dress,...

Even the smallest of things that we take for granted are big things at a time like this. How hot my tea, how sweet, how much water in the mug.

For somebody like me, so independent and auto-everything, it was a very humbling experience. To relinquish all power and be content and grateful all at the same time was surely a major surgery to my brain itself.

I am glad it is almost over. In a few days I will be ready to celebrate a great victory over illness and negative attitudes. Praise God for that!

2009-07-21T13:45:00.004-04:00

Disappointments

Do we ever learn to live in/with disappointment? What is about it that hurts so much? And why do we fall for it again, and again, and again. Maybe we place expectations that are too high. Or maybe we shouldn't have an expectation at all.

Is it only the people we love who have the power to trigger that button? But other people do too. I am wondering if we have the right to be disappointed at those whom we've loved and invested on? Maybe not because we could look like we gave to receive.

Do I disappoint people around me the way I feel disappointed by some?

Dear God,
Help me be mindful about those around me, especially those who look up to me
I want to be a source of inspiration, never a disappointment
And God, help me be tolerant and to continue to trust in those whose words seem to have no worth. I want to love like you.

Disappointed again,
Me

2009-05-21T10:32:00.004-04:00

Priorities

This past week a very important music conference took place in Miami. Jorge and I have attended this event for so many years that I can not remember exactly how many. This year, however, we decided to skip it.

Family time and commitments were far more important this time around. Also, I refused to take time off work.

What do you know? The one refusing to take a day off work did not think twice to take whatever time off when it came to be about her son.

Dan had to be admitted to the ICU with Kitoacidosis. Severe dehydration, protein in the urine, acids in the blood, high glucose in the blood, unstable heart, and on and on.

Thank God he is out of the ICU, but we are still here at the hospital. We might go home today and I am willing to take life without pay for my baby boy :)

2009-05-12T20:35:00.003-04:00

No April Anymore

April came and went and I didn't realize it. I spent 12 days in Europe and when I came back, Jorge stayed there for another 2 weeks. Being a single parent is a tough job. My respect to all single parents. Dan is graduating in a couple of weeks and had singing competitions that he kept on winning, so he kept on competing. Then, Ragtime show rehearsals and performances. I attended all 4 nights. He did an awesome job.

Saini on the other hand, has been working very hard to make good grades at a school she hates. She too, had a few performances of her own.

Jorge came home for 4 very short days and took off to Italy. Yes, again. He is back now for a couple of weeks. And then, he will go back to Italy for another couple of weeks.

I am enjoying the moment while it lasts. Staying busy with prom, graduation, Danmoving out, visit from out of town, and everything in between.

2009-04-05T13:34:00.002-04:00

My Baby and I

2009-04-05T13:23:00.003-04:00

Undeniable Beauty

Today as I was on a bus from Madrid to Vigo I had the opportunity to enjoy a quiet ride in the presence of a majestic nature that was everything but silent. Tall mountains lit by the sun and cover in snow. Perfect valleys of green and purple. It was as if God was showing off his workmanship.

But there was something that caught my eye in a special way. As I contemplated the hard rocks and the walls of stone I could see small bursts of life. Small and bright flowers standing on their own. The source of their beauty did not come from the hard and dry environment they were at, but from deeper within.

God created us with that in mind. No matter what our location is, among dry people at work, among dysfunctional members of our family, jail, no matter where, we can reach within and find him to give us beauty impossible to be denied.

Can others see your beauty where you are at? I surely hope that when anyone will see me I might be projecting more than my own rubbish and nonsense. It is my prayer for you and for me that all may see the beautiful life of Christ when they see us.

2009-03-30T13:14:00.000-04:00

Hearing Voices?

The world in which we live is a very busy one. It is never quiet or dormant. It is always communicating through media, people, cyberspace, in every possible way and language. What are you hearing? In the middle of so many voices telling us we need this, we need that. Voices dictating our values and principles of life. Many voices persuading us to move either left or right. Even voices so daring as to try and dictate our future. Voices who claim an outcome for us based on what we choose to believe or not.

I choose to hear the voice of truth. Like the song say, “the voice of truth tells me a different story. The story of yes I can, not because of a political inclination or leader, or church, but because I can do all things in Christ who is my strength. I choose to hear the voice that tells me “I have a plan for you and a future.”

2009-03-18T12:34:00.005-04:00

Rain, rain, please don't go away!

It is rainning in South Florida today. I love the rain. I love its smell, I love its sound, I love how it feels. I love rainny days. They are worth taking a day off work, even though I didn't take one today.

I want to run around barefeet and just enjoy it. The rain reminds me I am free. I have been set free. So I do not care what others might think of me getting wet. I love the rain God created for my enjoyment.

The rain reminds me of the gift of love. Not only God loved me so much to give his son, he gave me Jorge to love me as well. And yes, I think of him when I close my eyes and smell the rain.

It reminds me of wonderful advetures of childhood; like scaping the house to run around the neighborhood with friends. Oh how I love the rain. Please, don't go away!

2009-03-15T16:06:00.004-04:00

Childhood Memories

Who doesn't have memories from childhood? We all remember different times, different people, activities, foods, many things we did or wanted to have done.

My parents were very strict so I have tons of memories of things I wanted to do but, was never allowed to. I remember places I wished I could have gone to and now they don't even exist. But I realize it makes me happy to think of the best memories; the ones I was able to embrace and enjoy. It does well to my soul to think of the good times, to think of the "yes" times and the experiences I long to indulge in again.

Here is one of those awesome memories... eating Frio Frio (a Dominican shaved ice drink).

Well, Piragua in San Juan.

2009-03-03T20:49:00.002-05:00

Better than Mofongo

I had the opportunity to spend the weekend in Puerto Rico. Aside from ministry, most of what I did was eat. I am not clear as to how many times I ate a form of plantain, including several Mofongos. man, Mofongo is good.

I ate it at a fancy, gold fork, restaurant in the Condado. It had a very nice twist. Then, I ate it in San Juan at a very, everyday, type of place. It was out of this world. It was so good I am still thinking about it, planning another visit on my next trip.

I would trade any dish, many desserts, a lot of things for another plate of that Mofongo. Now, this morning I had a little time with God and after a few minutes with Him, it felt so good that I forgot my whole weekend experience. It was so easy to come to the conclusion that God is so much better than Mofongo. And Mofongo is good!

2009-02-23T09:56:00.004-05:00

My blender story

I was in the mood for a delicious smoothie. All the ingredients were in and I was ready to enjoy it. I kept turning the switch on but no luck. My blender would not work. I moved the cord, took the jar off and put it back on...nothing. Then I noticed the plug was off.

The blender was in perfect condition. Good engine, good cord. The recipe was perfect, fresh berries, ice, some peaches. Yet, no smoothie until we got some "power".

Knowing me, my daughter said: "you're gonna blog about that". Of course I would.

If we are not "plugged" we are like my blender. Powerless. Useless. What can we do with a great-working engine and all the right ingredients —charm, friendliness, eloquence, whatever they might be— if we are not plugged to our source?

Thank you Jesus for being there waiting, wishing, hoping, we stay connected!

2009-02-13T00:39:00.001-05:00

Happy Birthday Brother!

You would have been 44 today.

You could have been with us, but you are not.

I miss the idea of you but, I won't blame you.

I am happy you are there, I surely will come too, hopefully not so soon.

There is one big truth in life, you either make Jesus your savior and go to heaven eternally, or you don't. I am so glad you were smart enough to make the best choice.

See you,

Your sister

2009-02-11T20:26:00.003-05:00

Investing in People's Lives

It is funny how opinionated we can be when it comes to judging other's abilities to fullfil their calling or reach their highest potential in life. We can see from the outside what to us seems like the problem or stumbling block.
What a difference it makes when we take the same sight or scenario and instead of finding the fault we make a deposit, an investment.
I am greatful for people who have seen potential in me to do this or that and have decided to invest a seed of love, intelligence, material good, or anything that I have been able to use to become a more useful person.
I am wondering who is needing a deposit from me today. Do you know anyone who could benefit from your generosity in any way?

2009-02-06T07:02:00.001-05:00

Fireproof

Of course I watched the movie! I went to the theaters when it came out and we pre-order it to support it. Now we are telling all our friends about it. It made us cry. And then I have been thinking....

Is your marriage fireproof? I dare say mine is. Because of me? Nope. Because of Jorge? Definetely not. If it depended on us, our marriage might not even be in existance today. I am not sure. 20 years is a long time. There are so many flaws in both of us. Gosh, we could be so complex at times. I am not sure we could have survived each other if it weren't for God's mercy. His grace, his guidance, his strength. He has been the best ally to our relationship. We are even happy! People can't believe we are so in love. But yes, we are. And the best part of it is that we don't have to fear it will change, because it does not depend on us. Yes, we have to work at it and want to do well, but God takes care of the rest.

Thank you God for giving me something that is real, actually, someone who is real. Thank you because he made a promise to you that he'd be by me til we die and he is even happy about it.

2009-02-01T10:46:00.004-05:00

Who is that?

A few years ago, after going through a series of difficulties I put on some weight. I mean "some" weight. The thing is that you normally go up and down 5-10 pounds and that is kind of normal. You keep on watching what you eat, adjust your amount of junk intake, and listo! But this one time I wasn't being aware of it. I kept on growing and growing until I saw a picture. My gosh "who is that?" I asked myself. I couldn't believe I was "that thing" on the picture. Not that being big makes you a thing, but that is how I felt. I knew better. My health was spiraling downward and now my self-steem was tempted to follow.
I had a choice to make. Not an easy one. It was a decision I had to make for myself. I did. And I am happy. Hey, I am not Cindy Crawford, not even Queen Latifah, but I am happy.
It is good to look at the reflection in the mirror or in a picture. What would we see if we took a peek today? I hope and pray that whatever it is you see, will empower you with courage to change whatever needs changing, and encouragement to continue to groom that beauty God has put in you!

Be loved and accepted today!

2009-01-28T18:49:00.003-05:00

The thief

Did you ever wake up as a child, in the middle of the night, thinking someone broke into the house and was headed to your room?
I remember hearing the steps. Slow and steady steps. And even though I was covered under the blanket head to toe, my eyes couldn't close any harder. I could hear my heart pounding wanting to leave my chest. But then I can't remember anymore. I am not sure if I would fall back sleep or what...
Thinking about it reminds me that at times, very much like in childhood, we panic at some "thief" we hear coming. The steps sound very real but at the end... what happens at the end? Many times there is only the threat or the illusion.
I am sure of one thing. If that "thief" is ever real, I know someone who is watching over me to protect me, to defend me, and to rescue me. He never fails.

2009-01-21T06:38:00.000-05:00

No thank you!

I am the kind of person who does not like to say no. Even though I am not a "pleaser" I like to work things out with others so that with a little compromise from here and there we might all be happy.
Now, when it comes to authority figures, it is a little bit more difficult. Telling a teacher "you are wrong" is not so easy. Or telling your boss. Or maybe a doctor.

Well, I am very proud of myself and I'll tell you why. This lady doctor we got for my daughter was a bit eccentric for my taste. There was something about her I couldn't quite put my finger on it. My daughter didn't like her at all. So I decided to make a minor,nice, careful, little comment about it to the doctor. Not only was she very defensive but, rude. You know what?! I decided to cancel the appointment and chose a new doctor.

No thank you!

Is there anyone in your life making you feel uncomfortable the wrong way? Who do you need to get rid of?

2009-01-14T19:09:00.005-05:00

All About Me!

The other day, someone decided to make the entire day all about me. At first, I had mixed feelings. Honestly, I was wondering what was behind all the shower of attention (I know, bad girl!). Anyway, I tried paying some favors and attention back, just to get the same attitude and answers: "it's all about you".

A few hours into the day I had forgotten already that I was the center of the universe and was surprised, once again, with a very intentional gesture of "you are the most important thing in the world". Oh boy!!!!!!! I began to get into it. I made good choices. I had a field day :)

When the day was about to be over, I was not ready to abandon the priceless role of princess. And so I went to sleep with the tiara in my heart. I DID feel special, beautiful, exquisite, and much more. The one person who matters most to me thought I was all that and made it a point to show me how he felt. I can close my eyes and experience it all over again.

Thank you Jorge! I dare you, let's make it all about you next.

And you my friend, who can you make it all about?

2009-01-14T18:57:00.003-05:00

My most sincere apologies!

I have been away from the blogging scene, relapsing into the old fashion journaling way. But I understand some of my faithful readers have been unhappy about my silence. After a few months off and half way through with technological difficulties, I am back.

Thank you for your encouragement. It means a lot to me.

Besos

2008-10-22T19:41:00.004-04:00

Why does it hurt to be caught?

Is it because you are truly embarrassed of your behavior, or is it because you lost control and unintentionally exposed yourself? Or maybe you didn't have the strength to stop on your own and allowed someone else in to help you stop?

I am not sure myself. But any of those reasons sound pretty painful to me. I wasn't caught, but I hurt for those who were.

God says that if we confess our sins He will forgive them. He can take any pain away.

Hoping to always be caught by Him,
Danisa

2008-10-11T11:39:00.003-04:00

Talking & not communicating
I've been following the development of a relationship between 2 friends very closely. Being married for almost 20 years comes in handy at times.
We (Jorge & I) laugh at so many things before they take place, only because we've been there done that. Sometimes it is cute to see the nervous reaction of their body language, or the defensive phrases not to give themselves up. It is hilarious.
But, having counsel so many couples through the years, there is still a big mystery or question on my mind. Why is it that people at this stage talk, talk, talk and communicate so little? It kills me how they assume to know this or that of the other person, and clearly don't. I guess it is part of the process, if you survive all the initial mis-communication, then you can survive a lifelong relationship.
What do you think?

2008-10-07T21:43:00.003-04:00

Not in a Million Years!

Never thought I would stop blogging for so long. After you develop a reader's circle it only makes you want to write more. We love having an audience, don't we?
The truth is that between having computer issues, traveling, and getting a new job... I've been blogging to myself the old fashion way, handwritten.
But, today I went to visit one of my beloved friends blogs, Heather's of course, I found myself really missing my blog spot.

Life takes us through so many different places. It is a journey you travel during the day, at night time, when it is sunny and when it is stormy. Through the snow and through the red skies the journey never ends.
We can choose to make the ride alone, we can walk, we can run, we can make many choices, but not in a million years I would like to go through it without my eternal Father. His sheep hear His voice and know it is Him!

Thank you for your notes and love. I am back!

2008-07-16T12:46:00.002-04:00

4 Nominations to Jorge!

Premios Arpa is one of the most sought after recognition in the Spanish Christian Artists community. It is a premiation where excellence is recognized regardless of popularity. Only artists and related fields members are allowed to vote.

Here are the 4 categories Jorge was nominated to:

Best album of the year
Best male album
Revelation of the year
Best artist website

Hey baby, to me, you already got them all! Keep looking up!

2008-07-13T19:05:00.004-04:00

19 Years Ago

A day like today, 19 years ago, right about this time, I was saying "I DO"

The lucky one? Me, of course. I had no clue. But I bet anyone's story isn't as romantic as ours. Everyone knew we were in love, but us. I truly married my best friend.

I miss him today. He is far in Europe singing someplace, but I am sure I am there with him.

Thank you God for such a great gift. The gift of friendship, companionship, love and sex. Specially the last one. :)

I still do! And I will until death do us apart!

I love you Jorge!

2008-07-08T23:44:00.003-04:00

The Gipsy Story

While Jorge is gone and it seems to be the only thing I can talk about, there are exciting things happening. I'll share one of them.

Jorge is introducing the ministry to some gipsy churches in Spain. In those circles you either make it in or not. Since I have a fascination for gipsy fashion and jewelry, Jorge used that as an icebreaker at the first gathering. At the end of the celebration he saw a lady with a plastic bag going around collecting things the ladies were taking off themselves to send me as a welcoming gesture. It was original gipsy jewelry. Lots of them! Knowing me, you can imagine my excitement. I wasn't sure if I was happy because Jorge was welcomed or because I got so much "genuine" pieces coming my way! At least I'm honest!

Good job Jorge!

I must post some pictures when Jorge gets back.

2008-07-01T23:47:00.005-04:00

I miss Jorge!

Since my last post my life has been upside down and back up. All I'll share right now is that Jorge is in Europe and I am in North Carolina. No, he didn't leave me. I mean, he did, but not like that...I couldn't go with him. So in my attempt to try and survive 5 LONG weeks without him, I packed my 2 monkeys (Dan & Sainad), the dog, and the 2 fish (Charlie & Lola) and here I am. That was the easy packing. Try getting Jorge's life confined to a suitcase and a carry on! Now, that was a challenge! I was able to fit his special hair gel, skin care, vitamins, allergy pills, pain killers, antibiotics (just in case), his special pillow cover, emergency snacks, TV-make up, clothing for 5 weeks (thank God he didn't take his red shoes!). He made it to Italy with every little thing intact. Praise God!

As I write I remembered that he flies to Spain today, probably right now. And I miss him.

I am enjoying my sister, but missing Jorge.

I enjoyed an incredible day with a good friend from yesteryears, but still miss Jorge.

I am having a great time doing water aerobics and relaxinfg in Stepford city :), but still miss my Jorge.

Please pray for us as he tours these few, but long weeks away from home and what he knows.

2008-05-27T18:56:00.003-04:00

Very Excited

Have you ever been so excited that you go kind of crazy? Maybe tried to tell a story of something important but all the words came out at the same time and then nobody understood what you were trying to say. Or so hiper about going somewhere that you got ready too fast and your shirt was either inside out or you had a spill/stain on your clothes.

Well, that's me right now. Not that I am going anywhere or that I have a story to tell, but there is a sense of excitment like the advent of something big is around the corner. That is an awesome feeling.
Let me invite you to join me and indulge in God's presence, even if only for a short while.

I'm back!

2008-04-25T11:05:00.005-04:00

DREAMS

I am a "dream girl."

I have been dreaming for years. It has been the same dream. Sometimes it has special effects; some other times, it might be very glamorous; and at other times, it is very selfless and giving. But always the same dream.

I've had to give up many things for my dream. I've had to sacrifice much to stay focused through the years. But, I've also had a lot of fun seeing God do his part.

One thing I've learned in this business of dreaming is that the fulfilment of my dreams and my fulfilment as a person, does not come from seeing it happen, but for believing it is happening. It is not so much about the destination, it is entirely about the journey.

I am not dreaming alone. I am not walking alone. When tired on the road, a little rest and food for the soul always do the trick, and then, on to wherever my dreamgiver takes me.

What do you live for? What is your dream?

2008-04-10T11:30:00.005-04:00

A Mirage

As a christian, I've learned to walk my dessert many times. It is always the same thing. Walk, walk, walk... eat dust, get dry, complain, see a mirage... then eat manna from heaven and walk through the red sea.

Why do we eat the dust? Is it really because it looks like water, or because we forget the difference?

Why do we complain? How can we forget the times we've been rescued before?

To tell you the truth, I don't like the dessert. I strongly dislike manna. Mirages make me feel stupid.

I can't wait to walk through the red sea!

2008-04-03T10:34:00.006-04:00

A Friend is Always a Friend (Prov. 17:17)

Some friends don't help, but a true friend is closer than your own family. (Prov. 18:24)

The longer I live the smarter I get. Isn't that nice!? Really... I've come to realize that true friendship has very little to do with the time you spend with someone. It is more about the commitment of cheering someone on, even from a distance, even when things are not going so well.

I have been very blessed to have a few of those in my life. Just last night I realized how wonderful it is to be under their influence.

Thank you Heather! It doesn't matter how I feel, you always cheer me up and encourage me to press on. I know how busy you are, but you always have time for me. Just the fact that you wanted me to go to Italy so bad, like if it was your thing... gave me the courage to wish on and believe it can be.

Thank you Diana! It doesn't matter what it is, I can tell you about it. I can disturb your sleep, get you out of work, have you get on a plane, just because... you are my friend.

Thank you Mariela! I've never seen so much undeserved faithfulness. I've invested so little in your life, yet you are always sure to speak such beautiful and powerful words into my life. I am sure when your Mom looks down she has a huge smile on her face.

2008-03-19T01:13:00.004-04:00

Human Nature's Predicament

"For what I want to do I don't do; and what I don't want to do is what I do."

Imagine someone as incredible as Paul struggling with doing/not doing right. I am sure there's been times when I've felt somewhat victorious and strong and maybe even powerful in God and yet, just like Paul, regreted doing or not doing right.

Choosing right or wrong is not always easy, even though we might be sure of the choice we should make.

I take it a step farther. Even when we clearly know what is right and wrong, our natural tendency is to do wrong. We know the choice should be time spent with God, yet CSI Miami sounds more enticing. A kind response might build our loved one, yet it is easier to just growl. Walking away from harmful foods is the right thing to do, but we fall for the high cholesterol/damaging sugar treat. Remembering our covenant and commitment to our spouse is the better choice, but how many times it is not the first one?

I am not even talking big sins here like adultery, killing, stealing,... I am talking every day little things that build up and destroy us. Just like a toaster. Once brand new and shiny, little by little, a drop of butter here, a very tiny piece of cheese there... Today, full of black grimmy gunk almost impossible to clean.

But I feel very positive today. I know that as easy as it is to choose wrong, it is to call on to God. He walks with me and He talks with me and He tells me I am His own. It is as easy as calling His name, JESUS. He can help me choose right and if I've already chosen wrong, He makes me right!

How wonderful is that!

Just by calling on to His name, JESUS!

2008-03-12T23:05:00.004-04:00

I like what I do!

And what is that?

I love taking care of Jorge. Choosing his looks, keeping his things together, working his agenda, making him happy and feeding him.

Packing lunch for my monkeys. There is something about it that makes me feel like a good mom. The little lime juice on the apples, just like Dan likes it. Half a sandwich for my Saini and a little something sweet.

I enjoy bringing beauty in disguise to display. I love the transformation of dark to light, rough to suave, coarse to smooth. When a lady sits on my make-up chair and allows me to transform her into a masterpiece I think I enjoy it so much more than she does.

When I am to speak into somebody's life and I see God use any word I say I get all hyped up. It's like I can't get enough of it.

Well, I did all of the above this weekend and I feel great!

I did what I am best at and enjoyed the blessings of God on it and through it.

2008-02-26T23:32:00.002-05:00

So much to tell, so little time to write!

Something was bothering me today. I kept thinking...what is it? Until I figured it out. I had not blogged in about 3 weeks. How can that be possible? I have so many exciting things happening, yet non publicly recorded.

Here are some of the highlights:

I got my physical done. The doctor was very excited at my weight loss over the past year. I was also CHALLENGED to begin a new regimen since diabetes decided to visit me.
Jorge got signed by one of the most respectable Spanish Christian labels in the industry. This distribution deal is awesome for our ministry and it came at the perfect time.
Sainad got A's & B's on her report card. That is a MAJOR accomplishment!
Dan got a job at Publix right accross from our development.

What can I say? Life is full of exciting moments that remind us God was in control, is in control and will continue to be, no matter what we do.

Love you friends!

2008-02-04T19:21:00.000-05:00

GIANTS! There is always hope

At the beginning of the football season it didn't look like the Giants would be having a good year. In fact, last year was not a good one.

Their victory was a surprise to many. It made me stop and think how many times we don't seem to be having a good season. The tendency, to quit. Much too early we declare defeat, when maybe all we need is a change of strategy.

I am encouraged today to continue trying new ways, different things, whatever, to accomplish my purpose in Christ. It may look like I might not be having a good season, but God has the real picture of my life. He knows exactly every little thing I must go through in order to win my game.

It doesn't matter how bad or complicated life may look right now. It doesn't matter how terrible the economy is. God has my game under control. The one I trust is the allpower, allknowing, allcapable God who created me, takes care of me and is cheering me on.

I will win the race!

2008-01-29T22:53:00.000-05:00

Decisions

Are you the kind of person that can decide easily what to wear, what to eat, where to go, what to do on your day off? If you are, that is great and you belong with me. I am a fast thinker and won't fuss much about choosing.

I can make decisions in a flash, I think, good ones. At work, is part of every day functioning to make decisions and you need to be prepared to make them without much error.

At home, that is another story. Two teenagers and a husband! You see, I didn't say making a decision was easy or fun, I just said I can make them most of the time. When it comes to permission for an outing, or money, or school stuff is really not a big deal. But when it comes to affecting our lives and the lives of those whom we love, or changing radically our routines or familiarities, then, even people like me become whimpies and have a hard time deciding.

I am a whimpie today. I have to rely on God to make me strong. He can. I know if He is leading the way there is no reason to fear.

God, I decide to trust you with everything today!

2008-01-17T09:47:00.000-05:00

Star Customer Service

When you work for a company that emphazises customer service as a priority, your goal is to make sure everyone is satisfied BEYOND their expectations. You see, when I went to business school (just a few years back :)) good customer service was to meet the clients' expectation. Now days it is to exceed it. It is amazing all the effort that goes into that. And we are talking of simple purchases, providing a service, trivial stuff.

I tried translating that thought into Christian life. How can I WOW the people I come in contact with beyond their expectations? I was sad to realize that it takes so little in this scenario, yet I am not incline to make the effort.

I said good morning to a custodian at the mall with a big, sincere smile, and the poor guy was so confused I had to say it again, "Good morning sir" he kept looking at me like waiting for me to ask a question or something, then, he smiled back and replied. I saw the same guy a few days later, and asked him how his day was going, and I could see his face light up and his shoulders going back. He answer a simple "very good" and I kept going my way, but I know he was WOWed by my noticing him.

I want to be a Star Customer Service provider for God! How many people can I WOW in a day?

2008-01-03T23:03:00.000-05:00

Are you a gift returner or a gift keeper?

Well, let's see! How many trips have you given to the mall to return or exchange gifts? Since I have been working at the mall I could say none to return. It would be true, because the main reason I go is to work. Now, did I exchange or return any gifts during my stay... that's another blog!

The truth is that I've had the opportunity to see how easily people reject/exchange a gift. They walk up to the register and simply say "this was a gift and I don't like it, or it doesn't work for me" and that's it.

It stroke me in a very special way this season. How much thought, or care, or money is put into giving a gift, for it not to be received. I am aware that many times we don't even find out, but still, our gift hasn't been apreciated.

I think of the many gifts God has given me and question myself... did he see me exchange it at the mall?

I did take the gift of salvation, but... what about the gift of mercy? Did I exchange it for another gift that suit me better? I don't know, maybe I need to examine more closely all the gifts God has given me and make sure I find a use for them in my life and not return them when he is not looking.

What gifts has he given you? Are you going to keep them?

Dear God, help us count our blessings each morning and to remember that every perfect gift comes from you! Amen.

2007-12-06T11:01:00.000-05:00

Christmastime!

My favorite time of year! In 1989, the year I got married, I put my Christmas tree up in October. I loved it.

I have been very frustrated for the last few weeks. I have been so sick all I could do was sleep, drink water and P.

I write a Christmas newsletter every year to update my out of town friends on our lives and to review with those near the great things God has done through the year. I like finishing it early. I did. But, being so sick I couldn't print it, I couldn't get the envelopes ready... to me, I am so late it is not even funny! I basically finished my holiday shopping in November. Wrapped a few gifts, put a few things inside the stockings...and the rest? Sitting on my dresser and under my bed waiting for some energy to finish wrapping.

But, miraculously, last night I made it to church and I remember at a certain point our pastor prayed for those who had a tough week, those sick, discouraged,... and all of a sudden I woke up this morning so energized and ready! It still bothers me that I am late in my Christmas business, but I think I can handle it!

I pray for health for all of you. I pray for rest. So you may enjoy the most fun time of the year!

BIG HUG!

2007-11-27T20:43:00.000-05:00

Sick!

Hello my faithful friends in blogville! I shall be back soon. I've been so sick I even miss church altogether this weekend.

Hope you all had a memorable Thanksgiving!

2007-11-13T18:27:00.000-05:00

Which way are you going from here?

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?' 'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat. 'I don't much care where --' said Alice. 'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.'--so long as I get somewhere, ' Alice added as an explanation. Lewis Carroll, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland

I don't want to just get somewhere. So to me, it makes a difference which way I take so I can end where I want to go. You must be clear where you want to go so you don't get confused on your way there. I am reminded of Moses leading the Israelites into the Promise Land. He was clear that was his final destination. He consulted God for the strategies on how to get there. The route God gave him didn't look right, but he followed it.

You must be pretty certain God has mapped out your route so you can follow it even when it looks like you are going away from it. You must hang out with him to know for sure this is the right way.

Only then, you could be facing your worse enemy and destruction, feeling trapped and helpless, yet see your Deliverer open the red sea and make a dry path for you to get to YOUR Promise Land. My pastor talked about this the other day and it stayed with me. Only God can bring you to the other side. Why not trust Him with our destiny?

Dear God, I know where I am going, would You help me get there? And, please help my friends know where they are going and to trust you to take them there. Amen

2007-11-10T10:39:00.000-05:00

The American President

This has been one of my "mostest" favorite movies. I can watch it any time. I own it but, if it comes on TV, I am always tempted to watch it with commercials and all. It is somewhat a modern Cinderella. I get at the edge of the bed (I like watching movies in bed) every time there is a romantic scene or a leadership debate. Besides their reconciliation scene after the State of the Union speech, my favorite scene is the argument between Lewis Rothschild and the President. I thought I'd share that with you:

Lewis Rothschild: People want leadership, Mr. President, and in the absence of genuine leadership, they'll listen to anyone who steps up to the microphone. They want leadership. They're so thirsty for it they'll crawl through the desert toward a mirage, and when they discover there's no water, they'll drink the sand.

President Andrew Shepherd: People don't drink the sand because they're thirsty. They drink the sand because they don't know the difference.

At my church, we take leadership very seriously. Not to brag but, we have a very solid group of smart leaders. This scene from the movie reminds me how desperate people are for answers to their life pains, frustrations and failures. They are willing to go anywhere in search for those answers, and be it that they may drink the sand either because they can't see anything else or because they might not know any different; it is our job as leaders to step in. We have to step to the mic and share the good news we know.

I know the difference between a mirage and water, JESUS is. I know what I need to quench my thirst for life ambitions, dreams, struggles, shortcomings... the Living Water, Jesus.

And whoever drinks of this water, will never thirst again!

2007-11-01T12:58:00.001-04:00

A story about building walls, defeating giants, a Book and a Spirit

A long time ago, a guy was asked to build a wall around his city to protect it from the enemy. There was a little problem, he didn't have enough time, man power or the resources to do it. What amazes me is that in spite of the difficulties, he managed to get the job done.

Many times we see the difficulties. We focus on the problem, on the impossibilities. This particular situation reminds me that God is not asking for miracles from us. He is asking that we believe He can. He is not asking for super powers, he just asks for passion and obedience. The beauty of it all, we do see miracles and super powers in action!

This particular guy came up with an idea: If EVERYONE built a wall in front of their own places with their own resources and families, the job could get done in record time and completely. They did.

This is what I see about this man:

He was able to hear what God wanted for him/of him
He was able to believe he could do something about it
He had the passion to pursuade others to believe it also
He had the energy to make others act on it

As I reflect on my own life and what God wants of me, I wonder if I could build this wall for real. Do I see the wall as a powerful undefeatable giant or do I see it as an opportunity to glorify God? Do I really trust God to provide the resources to defeat my giant? A Book and a Spirit don't sound like much some times. But when I try it, it is always more than sufficient!

__________ (fill in the blank with me, whatever the name of your wall/giant; and say) I come to you not in my own power, but in the Power of God Almighty! You are defeated in His name!

2007-10-22T12:38:00.000-04:00

Sorry I hurt you back!

Carlos, you hurt me. A few months have gone by since my brother passed away. Carlos was really charming. He had a look on his eyes that always made you say yes to him. He was so popular you would not believe it. Yet, he hurt me. When we were growing up he always called me names. He found reasons for rejecting me. I was never good enough in his eyes. Even my accomplishments carry some sort of negative connotation to him.

I fell for it. I was his pray. I felt fat, ugly, not nice and inadequate. Yes, all of it. I tried harder and harder to succeed and drifted farther and farther away from him. I never longed for his company though I missed having a brother.

It was not the same with the baby sister. Those 2 were close and well bonded. She was pretty, for real. She was very friendly, I really wasn't. I got so jealous of my sister that I pushed her away too. I was the typical middle child but, I decided to move on to higher places and buried myself into achieving at school. I did well and earned my parents' admiration and favor. That was not enough. I didn't have a relationship with my brother or sister. I blamed you, Carlos, for that.

I've realized that, yes, Carlos hurt me, but I've had the power to change things around all the while. I chose not to. Years down the road when I saw what a great thing could be to have a sister, I decided to pursue it no matter what. Good thing she wanted it also. it was so much easier to work through all the junk. She is my best friend! I love her to pieces!

I never got Carlos though. By the time I wanted to pursue him, God decided to take him home. Carlos, I am so sorry I hurt you back. I promise you, we will be together forever from heaven on.

I love you Manito!

2007-10-21T00:07:00.000-04:00

Be Strong & Corageous!
No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous... be strong and VERY courageous. Joshua 1:1-7

I've had a few conversations this week with some close and dear friends. They all had to do with BIG challenges they, we, are facing. Difficult things. Big things. I found some interestings facts in the entire situation:

Each one of them, us, has a very special/specific calling into ministry.
All of them, us, are trying seriously to live it out and make it happen.
God has promised to all of us to take us through the process of reaching our maximum potential.
The devil is not happy with either one of us.

The same way God promised Joshua that NO ONE would be able to touch him ALL the days of his life, He has promised to us, TODAY! He will be with us all and will never leave us nor forsake us. I am reminded that it might look like God is not with me, or that He forgot but, the truth is that He is with us and nothing can separate us from His love. He is true to His word because He loves us, He cares for us.

He made a promise to Joshua and later on, tells him he has a part too. Be strong and courageous, VERY courageous. Not kind of courageous, but VERY courageous. This is no business for whimpies. God knew before hand it was not going to be easy. He knew we would need this encouragement today.

Let us draw our strength from the promises He left for us in His word. And let's be courageous, conquering what is already ours. Let us not dismay until we see Him face to face.

Thank you God. Thank you for your promises and for being true.

2007-10-16T19:06:00.000-04:00

God told me to SHUT UP!

Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation? Tell me, if you understand. Job 38:4

When we are not happy, mad I should say, we say things. These things are not good, most of the time. I caught myself being ungrateful. God gave me a beautiful day with lots of sunshine. He gave me choices of clothing to wear. He gave me breakfast, snack and lunch. He gave me a car with gas and a place to go. Yet, I was not happy.
When the attention is centered around us we miss so many things.

But like Job, I realized (after God gently wispered in my ear) that He is almighty. He knows all. And most important, He knows best!

Fine God, I am still mad. But, this time I'll say...You know best. I wasn't there when you laid the foundation of the earth, so you are right, I don't know!

Thank you for not giving up on me. Mad and all, I love You much!

2007-10-10T05:55:00.000-04:00

All I need is YOU!

When life gets tough, all I need is You.
When the going is hard and relationships complicated;
When in the midst of a large crowd you are all alone, all I need is You.
When I've spent all my resources and I can't see beyond the tunnel;
When I am out of breath climbing my mountain and it feels like 40 years in the dessert, all I need is You.
When I hit the same wall over and over again and I choose not to move;
When tempted to wear the clown suit and take off the boxing gloves, all I need is You.
When I need to see to believe, all I need is You.
When I want to go back and forget what's ahead;
When I am tired, frustrated or scared, all I need is You.
When I don't have a plan and can not figure it out;
When I feel lost, without passion and excitement, all I need is You.

All I need is YOU!

For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE.

Thank you God, for having a plan for me. Thank you for giving me a HOPE and a FUTURE. I am passionate and excited about it today!

2007-10-06T23:35:00.000-04:00

I AM AFRAID!

This is supposed to be a spooky month...
But, the truth is that I am not afraid of the skeletons hanging on my neighbor's trees or siting on their front yards. I am afraid of the ones hiding in my closet threatening to come out.

I am a big girl now. I am not afraid of the dark. I am afraid that in my lack of faith my light might not shine bright enough.

I don't believe in big monsters. But, I am afraid if I don't stay put and close to God I might become one.

I am not afraid to open my door because something creepy and scary might come in. I am afraid that something ugly and slimy might come out.

I am not afraid of horror tales. I am afraid of the stories my mind could create and make me believe.

I am afraid God! But I know even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

2007-09-22T15:57:00.000-04:00

Yet, Another Plane!

I remember several years ago when in a financial crisis, almost unthinkable, God gave Jorge & I a couple of plane tickets, hotel stay, rental car, tickets to see Jorge's favorite artist, free dinners, welcoming packages.... when we could not afford a penny of it. It all came from different sources without any of them knowing what the other source was doing.

This week, after Jorge's non-stop work, work, work... and "a few" financial challenges, God did something similar. Kind of to remind us He is faithfull. He's done it in the past. He can do it again.

I rejoice in His grace today as I pack my bags to go with my honey and relax in the beautiful beaches of the Dominican. All-inclusive resorts, air tickets, whatever you can think of...is nothing for God when He decides to bless His own. I am blessed today! His love for me goes beyond my understanding. He gave me today what I need today.

Have you told Him lately how your heart feels? Have you taken the time to cry with Him? He listens and He answers! He is by far, the best friend anyone could ever have!

2007-09-19T18:56:00.000-04:00

Are You Perfect?

I am sure some times you think you are. I do. Then reality sinks in and I realize how imperfect I am. The same way we're not perfect, our relatives are not, our friends are not, our spouses & children are not, our work friends and our church family aren't either.

Many times we choose to do life alone because a bunch of imperfect humans are sorrounding us. But, we are one of those imperfect creatures.

I had an idea this morning. Let's change our expectations of others. Let's expect imperfection and see what we get. Maybe we won't be as disappointed and be able to enjoy others more.

Let's give it a try and see what happens!

Get back to me and tell me about your experience. I will surely be blogging about mine soon.

Your imperfect friend

2007-09-11T17:16:00.000-04:00

And the mynakedpastor photo contest winner of an ipod nano... Dan Suarez! To see other pictures by Dan visit myspace.com/notdaniel

2007-09-10T14:39:00.000-04:00

DREAM

This week I've been in the acrostic mood. Not sure why, but my brain is going in that direction.

D is for doing. If our dreams are going to materialize, we have lots to DO.

R is for Resting in God. We DO our part and REST assure that God will do His.

E is for Enthusiasm & Excitement. We must be excited about who we are and what we'll be. About our calling and the purpose of our lives.

A is for Attitude. Our attitude must be possitive, proactive, contagious, infectious. Always looking at life as champions since we can do all things through Christ who gives us strength.

M is for Maintenance. Yes, we have to keep it up by maintaing our dreams focused, fresh, organized, on agenda. Touch them up every now and then making necessary adjustments and updates every time the Giver of the Dream instruct us to do so.

I've dreamt of having my own Oprah/Ellen type of show, but my own way. More focused on relationships and sex than anything else. Well, about some 20 years later I've gotten the opportunity to get started in Venezuela with a friend. I've been there a couple of times and we tape several episodes every visit (we've done about 40). They air 2 x a week on TBN Spanish Barquisimeto. The dream was to have TBN Spanish-Enlace air them internationally. I've been kinda disappointed because they never answered. To my surprise, my friend called me from Venezuela this morning and asked me tune in Enlace Internacional....there we were to the world! Over 180 countries, who knows how many viewers! Also, my church asked me to be in front of the cameras this weekend. So I ask myself "can it get any better?" Knowing my God, I better be ready!

Today is a good day! Lord, help me stay focused on the victories and blessings I receive from you!

Me and Ade (Pastor Adelitza Guzman)

from Felices para Siempre con Adelitza & Danisa

2007-09-06T18:57:00.000-04:00

BLAME

By far the easiest way out.

Lamest excuse for our own screw-ups.

A natural instinct to avoid responsibility.

Mutilation of the senses.

Extortion of the truth.

I could say to be a victim of blame, but that would be blaming it for my participation in its game. Rather I should say I've tried to solve some of life's challenges by blaming something or someone. The result, unresolved issues, lies and pretenses. Have you ever considered that blaming does not fix the problem. It doesn't even make it better. In most cases it makes it worse.

When my best friend from high school and I distanced from each other I blamed it on a lie someone told me. I believed it and moved on leaving my loved friend behind. A few years down the road I felf her absence on my wedding day. She was not my maid of honor. Even then, I didn't face the issue. It took me long years to realize what I had lost and that no one was to be blamed but myself. To have the courage to see her and talk about our differences and come to a reconciliation was more difficult than blaming a third person.

God, thank you for godly confrontation and for the nakedness of the heart. I didn't get my friend back, but this time I knew it was not in my hands.

Wherever you are, I love you. I still think of you and remember our grown ups adventures! I know how great you were to me.

2007-09-03T02:33:00.000-04:00

Everybody is getting naked!

It makes sense. The more naked I get, the lighter it feels. What a great idea! Are you into the naked thing? I tell you guys, I can hardly wait for this next 5 weeks of nakedness. It promises to be life-changing. Just the special message from Pastor Troy this weekend got me thinking. But we need a place where we can get naked seriously, freely and publicly. It is liberating when you can share your bare self and what a better place than a home group? So I've decided to host a group at my house. Send any Westoners my way.

Come on...let's get it ALL off together!

2007-08-23T22:17:00.000-04:00

Another airplane!

That's been my story these last few months. Traveling was once something to be thought as glamorous, not anymore. Especially on coach!

Anyhow, I will be going to the Dominican to do heavy promo work for Jorge's latest CD and for Promissa (Priscilla's group). They are playing very well overseas and we need to take advantage of the momentum.

Most likely I will not be blogging from there. The network is very sluggish at my relatives (yeah, you got it, older generation) Shhhh. But, I'll be back in a week.

Love my children a lot while we are gone and pray for Rebecca who will be staying with them.

Don't get naked without me! I shall be back in time!

2007-08-18T15:39:00.000-04:00

Naked...but how naked? Completely naked?

The first thing I do when I get up in the morning is fix my "abundant" hair and put make up on. I get dressed nicely even to clean the house. Nothing stained, nothing torn, nothing wrinkled; it most be coordinated. Now, this is the routine even when Jorge is out of town or when I am not going to see anybody.

To some, I should get naked here. But you see, I don't think that is where my naked battle is. My naked battle is one step in front of a hypocritical smile I might display when I feel like crying. The battle is on when I declare one of God's promises on provision and I'm screaming inside how much I lack. It is complicated. You want to be honest, yet you don't want to sound whiny and needy. You want to be transparent, but you fear rejection when you are exposed.

It is easier to put on the mask and go on without owning any of your darkness and without exposing it to any light. It is much easier to build up walls of strength and courage with a few verses and move on. But does that really mend the broken pieces inside? Does it really make me prettier on the outside?

God, you see the real me. You see the broken pieces, the old wounds and the bleeding of the heart. You see me without. There is no place to hide. Please, God, help show my true colors and not blend in with the circumstances or pressures of the moment. I want to be the me You see. The one You created me to be!

2007-08-16T02:09:00.000-04:00

Do you have a story to tell?

My daughter Sainad came very excited from HS camp. She was telling me all about it and that the last night was the best ever. She said that they were all crying. I asked her why. It was "say so" night where people would get up and share. Many of them, deep-hurting stories. I asked if she shared and she said no. So I asked why. She said something like when you hear what God has done in some people's lives and they have gone through you don't have anything to say about your life.

My first thought was "thank you God because so far you have protected my baby girl from having a big story to tell".

My second thought was "how great it is when God puts our little things in perspective seeing what others endure".

But, my last thought was that we do have an important story to tell. Maybe we don't have an eating disorder, or maybe we were not abused or healed from cancer. But God did save our lives from eternal darkness and dispair. He did change our sadness into dancing. And he has given us a reason to live, a purpose to fight for.

I do have a story to tell! Do you?

2007-08-13T03:40:00.001-04:00

Have you ever gotten skinier by calling someone else fat?

Man, I wish you could because if it worked out that way I'd be "Latin Barbie."

But why is that? I mean, not that it doesn't work, but that we do that? We call other people stupid because that makes us feel smarter. We spoil other people's lives hoping to feel better, but our lives are unchanged.

Looking back I can see that anytime I see myself reflected in the mirror of somebody else's life and I don't like what I see, I attack. I get defensive. I feel insecure. Rather than facing the problem inside of me I tend to push it away into somebody else. It is only when I get "naked" and real when I realize the dark spots inside that need to be brought into the light.

My heart needs to be in constant check. This rotten human nature is constantly playing tricks on me. I thank God that he doesn't allow my name calling to make me better. It would be so unfair to so many!

This gives me an idea. Let's kill bad with good. Let's do lots a good name calling. I am sure it is going to boost me up.

Dear God, I commit to good name calling this week. Please give me lots of names to call.

2007-08-11T01:46:00.000-04:00

Why Do I Blog?

Well, there are many reasons. It is in, so I must be trendy! It is part of my FRC lifestyle, so I must not be left out. I LOVE talking...so when I write Jorge doesn't have to listen as much.
But I think the most important reason lies behind something I heard in a movie once. While watching "Shall We Dance?" the wife of the main character (Beverly Clark) said:

"We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'."

At my FRC community we DO LIFE TOGETHER so I know my life will not go unnoticed because my family will notice it. My life will not go un-witnessed because my friends will be my witnesses.

That, is why I blog.

2007-07-27T10:43:00.000-04:00

How predictable are you?

Jorge had a video shoot yesterday. We needed some extras to be in the audience so we invited some friends, posted some bulletins on myspace, and sent out a few emails. We were not sure what kind of turn out to expect so we prepared for the worse case scenario. It turned out to be great!

My problem was with some of the predictions we made. You see, a few of the friends we invited have been very easy to predict as not coming through in the past. Yet, they commit again and you trust them again. I was mad and could not decide if I was mad because they let me down again or because I trusted them again.

What kind of predictions do people make about you? I have been thinking about it in my own life. I would like for my friends to be able to predict love, kindness, patience, perseverance, joy, peace, goodness and all of those good things... But, do they?

Lord, help my friends make good predictions of me today!

2007-07-25T23:41:00.000-04:00

Ready or not, here I come!

My brother passed away this past July 7th. I don't think you can ever be ready to hear this kind of news. Honestly, I wasn't even sure how much I cared. What my reaction would be. We lived on different countries, different lifestyles, and different states of mind. He was the heartbreaker of the town. Successful with the ladies and friends with all. Excelled at every sport and charmed anyone with his funny speech. Not so good with business and not so successful with long term relationships.

Carlos was living his life as if on a race and lost it to inmaturity. He caused all of us who loved him a great deal of pain. We wanted to be wrong, but we weren't. Life must be lived wisely. Our choices will have consecuences and many are eternal. I thank God that not all was lost with him. At the very end of his race, he looked up and recognized his need of a Savior. He accepted his bad ways and asked God in his heart. And yes, God welcomed him into His presence at only 42.

Many things were never said. We had so many conversations pending... I don't think I was ready to see him go, but ready or not, it was his time to go.

Relationships have a new meaning for me. I realize now that it is not worth it to get tired of the fight. We must press on loving, and caring, and sharing, and being patient because we never know how many opportunities we have.

Do you have a "Carlos" in your life? Have you said it all already? Could you love a little more? Could you share just a little more? Could you have just a little bit more patience? Do!

2007-07-02T23:02:00.000-04:00

Making a stop along the way

Every time we've taken the road for a long trip, we make a stop or two. Of course, when the kids were younger the number of stops was higher, or I was prepared with a "pp" cup. Even though you get to a point that you just want to desperately reach your final destination, it is nice to stop and strech your legs.

Even better if you stop for a nice Starbucks fill up or for a scenic view (depending on the mood).
You see, many times we make it be about the destination forgetting how important it is the getting there. I am not too patient, so many times I just see the end, the last stop, the destination and don't make time in my "always thinking mind" to be quiet and take in what's happening between here and there.

Actually, you don't even need to take the road to make that insightful stop. I just did today. I took a look at my journey here and reflected on the portion left to my journey "there." I missed many pretty scenic views on the way here, many Starbucks and Popeye's chicken. But, I am willing to stop and enjoy the rain when I am stuck at home. I will stop to have a conversation with my neighbor. I will stop to listen to my daughter. At least today I will. Tomorrow, I'll continue with my journey.

2007-06-27T23:28:00.000-04:00

Free to Serve!

What comes to mind when you think of the word freedom?

When I think of the United States, my adopted home, I think democracy. Red, white, blue. I even think of all the history lessons I've read/learned trying to catch up to those born here. I think of equality, citizenship. I also think of freedom to speak, to vote, to be part of a society.

When I think of the Dominican Republic, my first home, I think of freedom as the chance to leave my parents. The waited for moment when I got to choose my own life. I think of Jorge. I think of far away, a new culture, even a different language.

When I think of God, my forever deal, I think of eternity, truth, reality. I think of love and grace. I think of transformation and purpose. I think of high calling and royalty. The only ONE who made me free to be a servant by choice!

And the truth shall set you free!

2007-06-24T16:38:00.000-04:00

Casket Shopping

I had to fly to the Dominican this week in a very unexpected way. My brother was very ill. His lungs were not working right, one of his kidneys failed, and on went the list. The doctors gave him a few hours to live.

On his dying bed I wondered if he had made peace with God for real. I had so many questions, but no answers. I went with my little sister casket shopping. What would he like, I thought. Blue or gold? Fancy or simple? And then I thought again. Did it really matter? Did I need an answer to those questions?

Have you thought of your preferences? Would it matter where or how you put this body to rest when you are so sure your FATHER is waiting for your soul in your eternal home? I made my very own choice, whatever the kids and Jorge want to do is fine with me. The cheapest/fastest the better. The home Jesus went to prepare for me is going to be awesome, and when the time comes for me to get there, I AM READY! Are you?

2006-09-28T17:45:00.000-04:00

Stood Up

Have you ever gotten ready for a date/meeting and got stood up?
I had someone coming today for a make up consultation at noon. I took time to prepared and even though I wanted to do other things on my day off, I was ready for this. Half an hour after the appt. time I called it off. The lady never came and never called. The real me wanted to call her and say a few things that were everything but nice. And then I thought, why do that? I've left God waiting for me many times and never got a mean call back. I've left the kids hanging... even my prince Jorge. I decided to put on a big smile and go out to lunch with my girlfriend. I was reminded that not everyone will leave you hanging, there is always someone ready to spend time with you.

2006-09-27T23:46:00.000-04:00

They Stopped & Watched!

I had a real cool experience a couple of Sundays ago. We were having a beach baptism celebration in Ft. Lauderdale. There most have been 500 people or more at the beach. I can't remember ever being at the beach with so many friends all at the same time!
At the moment of truth, when the "ceremony" began, I noticed this other group of people. they had been riding some water artifacts, BUT they stopped at the distance like wondering what was going on at the shore. It made me feel so good. I am sure they guessed what it was. They hang on for a while. As I saw them I hoped that one day they might have a story to share too. Just think about it. Isn't it cool that we have something to say? A story to share. I'm in!!! I am proud and happy to continue this journey with my Flamingo family!