Post Surgery Cheer

I went through a major surgery about 5 weeks ago. I thought I was prepared to face it until I woke up from the anesthesia. I realized I had to be resting for real. I depended on others to get my water, my sandals, help me dress,...

Even the smallest of things that we take for granted are big things at a time like this. How hot my tea, how sweet, how much water in the mug.

For somebody like me, so independent and auto-everything, it was a very humbling experience. To relinquish all power and be content and grateful all at the same time was surely a major surgery to my brain itself.

I am glad it is almost over. In a few days I will be ready to celebrate a great victory over illness and negative attitudes. Praise God for that!

Disappointments

Do we ever learn to live in/with disappointment? What is about it that hurts so much? And why do we fall for it again, and again, and again. Maybe we place expectations that are too high. Or maybe we shouldn't have an expectation at all.

Is it only the people we love who have the power to trigger that button? But other people do too. I am wondering if we have the right to be disappointed at those whom we've loved and invested on? Maybe not because we could look like we gave to receive.

Do I disappoint people around me the way I feel disappointed by some?

Dear God,
Help me be mindful about those around me, especially those who look up to me
I want to be a source of inspiration, never a disappointment
And God, help me be tolerant and to continue to trust in those whose words seem to have no worth. I want to love like you.

Disappointed again,
Me